I blinked my eyes sleepily. It was a grey outside. I wanted to stretch my arms but he was sleeping on my left arm which had gone completely numb. I leaned closer to watch him sleep with a smile. It was our third day and I had planned to go to the hiking resort at a hill and for that, we would have to leave early but I didn't want to wake him up yet. He was sleeping so peacefully. I kissed his forehead and wrapped myself around him and went back to sleep again.
The next thing I knew was that he was caressing my face feather lightly, tracing my eyebrows, my nose, my lips and cheeks. I opened my eyes in the bright room and smiled at him. His face in the morning was the best thing ever. He smiled, cheeks flushing.
"Good morning." I said.
"Good morning."
"Feeling okay?" I asked.
He blushed, his ears turning red. "Yeah." He nodded.
I reached to caress his face. "Why do you like caressing my face when I am asleep? Strategy to wake me up?"
He giggled. "It's the most gentle way to wake you up. Who knows, you might end up waking up angry if I randomly call your name and shake you up."
"Hmm, point." I smiled and pecked his lips.
He smiled and reached to peck my lips again. I was a little surprised. "You have good stamina huh?" He asked.
I smiled smugly. "I do?"
He blushed. "Yes. It was your first time right?"
I nodded. "Yeah. We discussed about it already in the beginning."
"I know. But you were too good for it to be your first time." He stared at me suspiciously.
I narrowed my eyes. "Aiy, come on. I dated a few times but never got laid."
"Hmm hmm. So it wasn't your first kiss?"
I opened my mouth then closed it again.
He nodded, understanding my silence. "But it was my first kiss." He smiled hesitantly.
I smiled back. "Now on wards do your every first with me." I pulled his hand up to my lips and kissed his wrist. I could tell he had held his breath. He was staring at me admiringly. He slowly embraced me, resting his head against my chest. I hoped he could hear my racing heart.
"Oh hey." I called.
"Yeah?"
"I actually planned to go to the hiking resort today but I guess we are a little late now. We can make it if we get going in an hour." I said.
He shook his head. "Let's not go anywhere today. Time passes so quickly outside. Let's just stay here."
I smiled. "You want to stay in bed all day? How naughty." I chuckled.
"E-Eh, I d-didn't mean that." He leaned away and looked at my face.
"I know. I know." I said sarcastically with a grin. I liked teasing him.
"Well, I don't mind doing that too."
My smile faded. What had gotten into him? He was flirting back!
He laughed. "Look at your face."
"How many condoms do we have left now?" I asked sternly.
"Umm three."
I nodded and smiled. "Will do."
He blushed, smacking my arm playfully. "Let's get up and freshen up now. I am starving."
I nodded with a stupid grin.
He sat up, wore his boxers and left for the bathroom. I sat up and stared out of the window with the same stupid grin.
It was barely a few minutes when he came strolling back to the room with a poker face.
"What?" I asked.
"You!"
"Yeah?"
"Look at this!" He exclaimed, pulling his boxers up and revealing dark red spots in his inner thighs.
I blushed. "Oh." I noticed the same spots on his shoulders and chest. Hickeys...
He blushed back. "How long will it take for these to go?
I shrugged. "I don't know."
He sighed.
I pulled him into a hug. "I am sorry. I was a little rough."
"It's okay..."
"Do you want to shower together?" I suggested.
He laughed. "Okay."
Well, we didn't succeed in only taking a shower and ended up with another round of love making. This time I was gentle and made sure he was pleasured well. After that intense session, we took a nice shower. I had always imagined how it would be like doing it for the first time with him. It was special. To watch the one you love being filled with pleasure by you is another kind of bliss.
"I am going to order breakfast and room service. What would you like to eat?" He asked after we came out of the bathroom and while I was towel drying my hair.
"Order anything you want." I said.
"I don't understand why you ask me to order meals for you. I don't even know many non-veg items." He said with a sigh.
I smiled sheepishly. "Well, okay. I am kinda craving for some dumplings."
"Oh yeah, I want that too. Chicken for you?"
I nodded with a grin.
I placed the towel over the chair to let it dry and went to sit by him on the bed after he had placed the order. I took his hand in mine. "You okay, right?" I asked.
He nodded. "Yes."
I smiled, sliding his hairs from his forehead.
"Kwan?"
"Hm?"
"You are leaving t-tomorrow, right?" He asked with glum eyes.
Oh. "Um yes."
He sighed heavily.
I smiled and kissed his forehead. "I will come back as soon as my exams get over and stay with you. Then I will study in a college somewhere here in the city and stay with you again."
He smiled.
Then the thought crossed my mind. "Have you...uh...decided?"
"What?"
"About abroad." I said, keeping my fingers crossed.
"Oh. I...I want to stay here but my friends and family are trying to convince me to go abroad."
I nodded. A sudden wave of sadness rushed over me. "So you haven't decided yet?" For a moment, I felt like a fool again for thinking only about myself again.
He bit his lips. "I will talk with them and tell them I want to stay here...with you."
My eyes widened. "You will tell them about me?"
"No. No. I mean I will talk to them about me not going abroad. I want to stay with you."
I smiled but I felt guilty for being a burden in his road of life.
He placed his other hand over our entangled hands and gave them a gentle squeeze. "I...I am happier with you. Even if we don't do anything, just your presence makes the surrounding so bright. I don't want to lose you."
I exhaled. My heart felt heavy at his confession. Slowly, I pulled him into an embrace. "I don't want to lose you either."
He was silent. When he didn't pull away, I thought he was just into the hug but a little later his body started to quiver. I pulled away and cupped his face in my hands, taking a closer view at his face. Tears were strolling down his face.
"Why are you crying?" I asked in a soft voice. Just the sight of him shedding tears made my heart heavy.
He shook his head. "I just felt overwhelmed..."
I wiped the tears away and pulled him in a hug, patting his back. "It's alright...It's alright." I repeated.
He started sobbing, hugging me tighter. I patted his head, trying to calm him down. A lump rose in my throat and I swallowed it down. But my sight grew a little blurry.
After a moment, he stopped sobbing and pulled away to look at me. His cheeks were flushed. "Please be mine." He said and the serious tone made me burst out laughing.
"What was that out of nowhere?" I asked, still laughing. He glared at me in embarrassment.
I pecked his lips and pulled both side of his cheeks. "I am already yours."
He wriggled his cheeks free and glared at me with a childish frown. "I am not a kid. Stop doing that to me. Also, I am older than you."
I chuckled, pulling his cheeks again. "But I am taller than you." I teased.
The doorbell rang and he rushed to the door. He walked back with our tray of food and set it on the table. We enjoyed our breakfast, sharing stories about home and laughing while room service changed our bed sheets. It was a happy day. But the thought of leaving kept me a little distracted. I wanted to be in the moment and enjoy every bit of it but the fact crossed my mind every now and then. He seemed to have accepted and enjoying the moment. But the more I looked at him, the more my heart shrank. I wanted to spend more time with him.
We spent the rest of the day talking and watching a movie in each others arms. This time I didn't fall asleep. He was those type of audience who would ask questions about every action in every scene as if I was the director of the film. If it were to be someone else, I would have snapped at them for asking so much of questions. But since it was him, I happily answered every question. I had watched the film before and knew the plot.
We had our lunch after the movie ended and decided to take a nap since we both felt sleepy. But when we lied down on the bed, as I tried to fall asleep, I could feel him looking at me. I opened my eyes and he was staring at me.
"Don't want to take a nap?" I asked, pulling him closer to me.
He smiled slightly. "I will. Let me look at you and memorize your features."
I chuckled. "Why?"
He poked my nose with his index finer. "Because you are too good looking to be true."
I flushed. "Aiy..." I wasn't good with compliments.
"Let me see...hm..." He ran his finger lightly over my eyebrow. "...dark and perfectly shaped eyebrows." Then ran his finger under my eyes. "...deep eyes...soft skin...cheek bones...sharp jaw....and..." He traced the outline of my lips then tucked a little on my chin so that my mouth slightly open. "...soft and sweet lips." I closed my eyes as he leaned forward and placed a wet kiss on my lips, sucking on my bottom lip.
It directly hit me in the groin. He kissed me once again but pulled away before I could kiss him back. He repeated the same thing again. I was lost. My mind had stopped functioning. All I could think about was the feeling of his lips against mine, soft and tender. I opened my eyes and caressed his cheeks, staring into his eyes. His eyes had darkened, pupils dilated. They looked dreamy and lost. I leaned down and kissed him lightly. My heart raced as our lips moved together, no one fighting for dominance. It was natural and gentle. I pulled away for a moment.
"Do you want to do it?" I muttered, staring in his eyes.
He blinked. "I want to but...I am a little sore..."
My eyes slightly widened. "Why didn't you tell me earlier?" I wrapped my arms around his waist.
He smiled, a blush playing on his cheeks. "I was shy..."
I exhaled, controlling myself from kissing him. I knew I wouldn't be able to stop once I started. I kissed his forehead and looked into his eyes. "If I hurt you, just tell me."
He nodded, blushing profusely. He reached for my left hand and brought it up near my chest. He fiddled with my fingers. "Any significance of this ring?" He asked, tracing the silver ring on my middle finger.
"Ah, this. It's my lucky ring. I just consider it lucky. I bought it on a school trip near a church because the shopkeeper told me it was astronomical and would bring me luck. You see this thin line on the ring? It's some mantra, I don't know. After I bought it, I wished for one thing and it came true." I smiled, watching him fiddle with my fingers.
"What did you wish for?"
I opened my mouth to speak but closed it again as I realized the story might upset him.
"What?" He asked, watching my reaction.
I shook my head. "Nothing..." I needed to come up with a story.
He scowled. "Tell me. You look really suspicious right now. What was your wish?"
I looked at him for a brief moment and gave in. "I wished for my first girlfriend to like me back." There. I dropped the bomb.
He raised his eyebrows. "Ah...I see. So she liked you back? Because you wished for it?"
I gulped down nervously. The look in his eyes were murderous and thrilling.
"I don't think so it was because of the ring though."
I was a little surprised he didn't choose to pick up a fight. "Why?"
He rolled his eyes. "Just look at you, boy. If you propose anyone, they would like you back instantly. You don't even have to try."
That was the first time I saw him rolling his eyes...at me. But weirdly it was such a turn on for me. "I think you are exaggerating it."
He shook his head with a sigh.
I leaned down and pecked his lips. I didn't want to pick a fight either. A thought crossed my mind and I pulled my ring out of my finger. I looked at the ring for a brief moment before reaching for his hand. He watched in shock as I slipped the ring on the ring finger of his left hand. Surprisingly, it fit.
"Kwan..." He trailed off at a loss of word.
I kissed the ring on his finger. "Now my luck is yours."
He looked at the ring on his finger. "No, the luck is for both of us." He smiled.
I smiled back. Just as I was reaching to kiss him, my phone rang. I gritted my teeth and reached for my phone. Such a bad timing. My eyes widened at the caller id.
"What?" He asked, studying my expression.
I shook my head.
"Pick up."
I sighed. The caller was one of my friends. I picked it up. "Hi." I greeted.
"Oh god Kwan! I seriously need your help. I am so sorry for disturbing you but I am really in trouble." Ava panicked.
"Calm down a bit. What's the matter?"
"He has started calling me again. Someone told him the photos were not real. I told I am still with you but he doesn't believe me."
I sighed. "Ava, you know we shouldn't take the hoax too far."
"I am really sorry but please help me this last time."
I glanced at him watching me intently, biting his lower lip. His eyes were curious. I threw him a smile.
"Okay, what do I do?"
"He is calling me continuously. Day and night!"
"You should just report him for harassment."
"But I am scared."
"Don't be. Just report him and the police will take care of him. I will give him a call later but make sure to report him for harassment." I said.
There was a pause at the other end. "Okay, I will report him. And thank you so much for your help. I will repay you someday."
"No problem. Just report him. It will be okay. Don't be scared to raise your voice."
"Thank you, Kwan." She seemed to have calmed down a bit.
"No problem. See ya someday. Bye."
"Bye."
I hanged up and looked at him.
"What?" He asked.
I exhaled and stretched my back. "Nothing."
"Didn't sound like nothing to me."
I turned to look at him, contemplating if I should really tell him. He would definitely get upset.
"Tell me." He leaned on my arm.
"Okay...it's actually nothing much. She was in trouble with her ex boyfriend so I just helped her a little."
He nodded. He wasn't buying it. "And how did you help her?"
I stared at him for a moment. "Um...just talking it out with the ex."
"Really? Why do I feel like you are trying to hide something?"
I sighed. "Yeah, I pretended to be her boyfriend."
He nodded. I was surprised that he wasn't surprised. His reaction was too dull that it made me curious about what he was really feeling.
He slowly turned and faced the ceiling, staring blankly. "Guess you can be just anyone's boyfriend."
I gasped and shifted closer to him. "No, it's nothing like that. It happened before I met you. I am really sorry. I told her we should stop with the hoax now. It's really nothing."
He sighed and closed his eyes. "I am kinda tired. I should take a nap for a while."
I opened my mouth to say something but closed it again. Hesitantly, I wrapped my arms around his waist and rested my head against his shoulder. "Okay, take some rest. Let's talk later."
He didn't reply. He was probably mad. I started to feel bad. I should talk to him when he would calm down.
I didn't know when I fell asleep but it was already evening when I woke up. And I was alone on the bed. I sat up and looked around. I panicked as he wasn't around. Just as I was about to make my way to the bathroom, he walked out of it. I let out a sigh of relief.
"Oh you're awake." He said, walking over to grab a glass of water.
I scratched the back of my head. "Yeah. Do you want to eat anything?"
He nodded, placing the glass down. "Yeah, let's have pizza tonight and pasta too."
I smiled. "Sure."
He smiled back but his smile didn't touch his eyes. Something seemed off. Was he still mad? I got out of bed and walked over to embrace him from the back. He turned around and looked up at me.
As he opened his mouth to say something, for a split second I expected him to talk about his feelings but instead he said, "Bring me ice cream."
I raised an eyebrow in confusion. "Ice cream?"
He nodded. "Buy me pizza from pizza hut."
I frowned in confusion again. "Pizza hut? I am sure they make pizza here too."
He shook his head. "But I want to eat from Pizza hut."
"You mean you want me to go out?"
He nodded. "Yeah."
I blinked. His replies felt cold, like he had a grudge against me.
"Okay...Anything else you want?"
He stared at me for a long time. I thought he would really tell me about his feelings then but, "No." He said.
I nodded.
So I went out to get him pizza from Pizza hut and some ice cream. He ordered pasta at the hotel. I was wondering if it was his way of punishing me for hurting his feelings. I bought everything and was back to the hotel. He was watching t.v when I entered the room. His eyes lit up at the sight of food. He rushed to take the packs from my hand and set it on the table. He took a pizza and handed it to me as I sat next to him. He took one of himself, opened a ketchup pack and spread it on the pizza as the alphabet 'k' and took a bite.
I smiled. He was really adorable. "K?" I asked.
"Yeah, I always do that."
I chuckled, taking a bite of my pizza. I watched him eat, shaking my head at him.
"So when are we going to be official?" He asked after a few moment.
I almost choked on the pizza. I looked at him and he was already staring at me with a blank expression.
"Uh actually..." I hadn't thought about it at all. I always felt like we were lovers and that we were together. It didn't even click that we weren't official yet. "...I thought we were already together. Aren't we?"
He exhaled loudly, taking a bite from his pizza. "Sometimes you are hopelessly romantic and sometimes you are hopelessly clueless."
I blinked. "Huh?"
He shook his head. "Nevermind. Yeah, we are together I guess..."
I looked down at the pizza box, not having the courage to meet his eyes. I must have done something terribly wrong. He was really mad. Did I hurt him in bed? Was he mad because of the hickeys? or was it because of Ava?
I sighed. I should do something before it was too late. "Let's make it official. I already gave you a ring."
He nodded but didn't seem satisfied. "Yeah, sure."
I just couldn't understand what he wanted. I smiled hesitantly. He smiled back but again it didn't touch his eyes.
We continued eating in silence. I was trying to figure out what I did wrong. He seemed normal but something felt odd. Maybe I was just thinking too much. He was just sitting there, eating but the aura felt cold and weird. Maybe it was all in my head. After dinner, he left to brush while I sat on the bed, still wondering what I did wrong. I wanted to ask him about it when he came out but when he came out, he rushed to hug me. I was taken aback.
"What's wrong?" I asked.
I heard a light sob. "I...I am just so overwhelmed that you are leaving tomorrow. I can't help it."
I patted his back and sighed. "I will come back."
He sobbed.
"Don't cry. I didn't know you are such a cry baby." I chuckled to lighten the mood.
He smacked my shoulder.
I laughed. "Okay Okay. Stop crying. Or you will make me cry too."
"You don't cry easily I know." He pulled away to look at my face.
His cheeks and nose were flushed with tears still streaming down his face. I wiped his tears away. He reached to caress my face, staring into my eyes. He bit down on his quivering bottom lips as his eyebrows pressed together, trying to control his tears. I opened my mouth to say something but his lips came crashing to mine, kissing me wildly. I couldn't grip the situation. Everything happened in a flash. He climbed on my lap, placing his hands on both side of my neck, kissing me as if his life depended on it. I kissed him back, trying to match his intensity. He was growing breathless but he didn't stop. He pushed me to the bed, unbuttoning my shirt in a rush. My heart felt heavy, watching him being so restless and anxious.
He pulled away for a moment to look into my eyes. "You are mine. And. Only. Mine." He said each syllable clearly.
I nodded, pulling him into the kiss again. My hands reached to open his t-shirt. He reached to kiss my bare chest. It felt ticklish and arousing. He opened my fly and looked at me, breathing heavily. I wanted to take charge. I sat up and pinned him against the bed, kissing his throat and biting his earlobe. He let out low moans in my ear and it set me on fire. I slipped my hand in his pants, grabbing his hard and throbbing membrane.
I chuckled. "You are so hard already."
"You made me." He whispered seductively in my ear.
I grinned, leaning to whisper in his ear. He gasped as I tightened my grip on his hard erection. "Let me take care of it then."
He gasped and his breathing hitched, trying to compress his moans as I moved my hands. It wasn't comfortable with his pants so i pulled them down and took a moment to enjoy the view. He tried to cover himself in embarrassment. I moved his hand away and grabbed him again. I leaned to kiss him as I moved my hand. He was trying to compress him moans.
"You can be loud, you know. I love it." I said, biting the skin on his neck lightly.
He gave up and let out his moans. I took a moment to grab the condom and lube and jumped back to him.
"Spread your legs wide. It's gonna be a long night tonight." I whispered, kissing him gently on the lips.
He smiled, a tear rolling down the corner of his eyes.
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