I wish I could re-visit the past,
And change everything that hurt me.
From people's words to their actions,
Was I always, this lonely?
Ugly, Disgusting, A Monster,
These are one of the few things they call me.
And I believed them,
As they had everything, to begin with.
I looked up to them as they were an inspiration,
But the more I got close,
The more I felt unworthy.
Everyone tells me to be strong and look at the bright side,
Cause there are butterflies and rainbows.
But they don't know how hard it is for me,
To just look up to the light in me.
They pity me, for who I am.
Have they not considered me alive?
Was I always dead on their minds?
The more I look in the mirror,
All I can think is,
Who is this girl?
Why won't she smile?
What had this cruel world done to her?
I didn't want to believe everything the world told me,
It always brought up my insecurities,
Made me lose my way.
And my past can never be changed,
With this comes the haunting memories,
And the voices, they taunt me.
I wish I had amnesia,
Forget the world for good.
Looking back,
I feel like I have become my own worst enemy.