I have never been the type to express my needs and wants soo openly. The thought of my desires manifesting always terrified me,and I don't mean that in any supernatural or unique way but in how I would start to see myself.One time when I was young probably eight or ten years old I got this desire for female interaction,though to this day I believe it's one of the most foolish things I ever did.I called my neighbor and friend from then and asked him if any of his older sisters has used the bathroom/toilet and he honestly so replied "no not yet".Even my friend was my neighbor living in the same building of apartment as me, his living standards was less average than mine, funny even among the average households there is a some sort of level or hierarchy, which is way their restroom was not in their house but outside in the wholeway sharing it with other renter's.Me being me, I went to the restroom and hid behind the door knowing she won't notice me due to there being another long dark distance between the main door and the door that actually leads to the toilet and once she went in closed the first door it become completely dark as she was used to it she did not care not knowing I was curiously waiting. For this is not the only time I let my desires take over me I decided to never be controlled by it yet as weak of a man I am sometimes I still lose to it at least it only harms me only thanks to the internet.This is my Lustful Desire.
