One Hundred:
Dream World
'Almos. Remember your past and let everything fall apart and it will answer all your questions.'
'What do you mean let everything fall apart?'
'You'll know what I mean once you let your past be remembered, you will learn everything that needs to fall apart and you'll finally understand the things going on around you.'
'I…' I don't know what else to say or to justify myself because the truth I am a coward. I'm scared to face the past that was only in my reach, yet I know somehow, I need to learn the truth behind everything mostly after meeting Jeanne and Fe, the past that I thought I don't have slowly showing like a river that flows freely through my path. And no matter how much I ignore it or defend it with my own justification, still, I can't stop it no matter what I do.
'Do not be afraid of the past because it was already a part of you. No matter how long you avoid it, truth will not change. Your past will hunt you down that you need to face it ahead even though you don't want to, because your fate already been decided from the very beginning.'
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'Where am I…?' I asked myself after opening my eyes into a strange place… again? 'No! This is not the place where I met that 'Almos look alike'. This is my… dream world.'
"What are you saying Jeanne? 'Almos look alike' what does it mean?" suddenly I finally heard Dione's voice and I was very excited to finally see her after the events happened these past few days.
"Dione!" I immediately hug her tight.
"Hey! What is this?" she asked as she giggles.
"I'm just happy to finally see you." I answered then I finally released her. "So, where have you been?" I curiously asked.
"I just went home."
"Why?"
"I need to settle something important." She plainly answered. "Oh, well! What do you mean about 'Almos look alike'?" she asked again with full of curiosity.
I sighed deeply before answering. "I just met someone that looks so similar to Almos."
"Really? That's something interesting."
"You were right." I answered and think of it deeply.
"Hey! Are you alright? What are you thinking?"
"My past." I seriously said.
Dione looks at me with surprised. "Why are you thinking of your past?"
"I can't explain it, but… I want to know the whole truth about who am I before I became me. Yet, I am afraid to decide because..." I paused and let the silence embrace me.
"Because of what? Tell me what you afraid of." Dione persuaded me to continue.
I stare at her as I take a deep breath then, "I'm afraid of… losing myself…" I answered with a doubt.
"You have a doubt and I know you knew it too."
"Yes." I confess immediately.
"Then, what else that you are afraid of?" she seriously asked and for some reason, I thought to myself, what am I doubting to. "Asking yourself what are you doubting, am I right?"
A smile formed my lips because she knew me so well I couldn't hide my feelings to her as if I am too transparent to her. And if I'll be honest to her, then, it only means, I need to be honest about myself. Because what I hesitate to admit to myself is about him.
"Almos. I'm scared to know that he was a big part of my past. Because knowing the things that he was involved, I don't know if I can handle it all." I seriously stated.
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"Almos!" suddenly I heard God Morpheus voice that it breaks the connection with the man that I'm just talking before he came. "What are you doing?" he asked as soon as he came to my side.
"Nothing." I quickly answered as I face him. "Do you need anything from me?"
"Oh, yes indeed. That's why I decided to come here."
"And what is it?"
"I need you to investigate the lost dreams of children."
"Lost dreams?"
"Yes. And as a Guardian Angel, I know you can fulfill this mission better than me and my brother. Not because we are incapable but because we face even more serious problems." He seriously stated.
Why do I feel like I know what problem he's referring to? Don't tell me… "It is about the new God who suddenly emerged from vast of oblivion?"
Morpheus face suddenly changes, indicating I hit the right answer to my question. "Yes, and it seems he was beginning to erase the Dream World and we couldn't just let it happen. Epiales and I will do everything to protect this realm no matter what. Because if we don't then, I'm afraid that whoever that God is, he wants to cut off the connection between the Mortals and the Immortals through dreaming. The first step to end our connections to the human beings, and for that knowledge, I know you do understand that we cannot protect them if we lost this spiritual connection between the humans. It will be a great disaster if it will happen."
Knowing the plan of the new born God, made it clear for me, that the new born God Khaliq was, the real Fallen Angel Azazel. Then, we don't have much time to waste. Knowing the power that he has, I am so sure he can fulfill his mission so easily.
'Then, open your memories and let your past be known.'
Suddenly I heard that voice again, the man that I'm just talking earlier.
'What are you saying? Will that be able to stop God Khaliq if I allow myself to know my past?' I asked anyway.
'Indeed. Because only I can defeat him.'
'I… you mean, me as you?'
'If you consider it, then yes, you as me, a new born God.'
'A new born God, me?' I speak to myself without restriction.
"Who are you talking to, Almos? And why are you referring yourself as a new born God?"
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