Sometimes you can't be who you want to be and sometimes you can't do what you want to do.

That is the daily life of our anti-heroine. She is over powered with innate and learned magics and abilities but she does not have them to use them. she has them because she was born with them and she learns quickly. 

for her it is about acquisition not utilization. She wants to have power to understand power but she doesn't want to serve and protect. 

but it is out of her hands because she is Rachel, the Milana of Trannisa realm. her purpose is to maintain a balance dictated by the realm.

she is there when she has to be and when she is not needed she is off learning new things. 

so what happens when she is suddenly needed all the time? will her habit of avoidance become a mask of doubt and insecurity. 

so will she be a flawed being and pass the torch or will she endure in self doubt and constant insecurity. 

or is there a third option that has been there all along and completely out of her control?

The shadow boat dipped, glided, and slid across the lava flows. Yana smiled, she actually loved riding the lava flows. Her senses seemed to become endless when exploring then. And because she had high control over shadows she loved being on a shadow boat, it helped her to see shadows more clearly. This helped her to understand and practice (shadow create) and (shadow manipulate).  The ships continually recycled shadows and because of this the magic inlaid on to them continually called shadows to it.


Yana took advantage of this and called then manipulated shadows herself. She manipulated some to help the ship and some foe her own purposes. Both worked to elevate her magics.


Yana looked up as Mag appeared next to her. Her black flame flecked with more red than usual. 'I want to go into the lava with you Mistress' Yana thought about it briefly. 


Chapter 249 - memories