A painful truth
Once [Global Wisdom] showed me my states, I was left shocked.
(What was that?) (How could somebody's status grow so fast?) That was all I could think about in that moment.
'Hey, why is there [Slime] right beside my race? And why are all my skills at the max level?'
[I am not completely sure, but I think it's because of the orb you absorbed that maxed out your skills.]
'What will happen if I press the [slime] button right beside my race?'
[I don't know, we will have to find it out.]
After I pressed the slime button, a new status window appeared right in front of me, but this window was not the usual gold color I was used to seeing; instead, it was a bright purple.
[Name: [Nyx]
[Race: [Slime]
[Level: [1/50]
[EXP: [4.000/4.000] [Stored exp: 80.692.600]
[Rank: [D]
[Status: [Assimilation] (Not completed)
[HP: [642.430/642.430]
[MP: [5.855.215/5.855.215]
[Attack: [89.930.054]
[Defense: [2.554.097]
[Magic: [56.314.746]
[Agility: [76.081.978]
[Intelligence: [68.856.670]
[Luck:[856.102.870]
[Charisma:[3.890.069.178]
[Skill Points: [980.276.000]
[Stat Points: [99.701.437.800]
Passive Skills
[Slime Body: Lv--] [Assimilation: Lv--] [Abyssal Bloodline: Lv--]
[Heat vision: Lv10] [Night Vision: Lv10] [Endless Regeneration: Lv10]
[Vision Expansion: Lv10] [Vision Enhancement: Lv10] [Mana Manipulation: Lv10] [Magic Control: Lv10] [Silence: Lv10]
Active Skills
[Rot Attack: Lv10] [Paralyzing Attack: Lv10] [Corroding Attack: Lv10]
Perception Skills
[Mana Sense: Lv10] [Thought acceleration: Lv10]
[Sixth Sense: Lv10] [Enemy Sense: Lv10] [Concentration: Lv10]
Magic Skills
[Original Abyss Magic: Lv5] [Deadly Poison Magic: Lv10]
[Blood Magic: Lv10] [Corrosion Magic: Lv10]
Resistance Skills:
[Physical Damage Immunity: Lv--] [Magic Damage Immunity: Lv--]
[Poison Immunity: Lv--] [Fear Immunity: Lv--] [Acid Immunity: Lv--]
[Corrosion Immunity: Lv--] [Fire Immunity: Lv--] [Rot Immunity: Lv--] [Paralyzing Immunity: Lv--] [Corrosion Immunity: Lv--] [Blood Magic Immunity: Lv--]
Title Skills:
[New In a New World: Lv--] [*****of******:Lv???] [Lover Of Mana: Lv7] [Deadly Poison Monarch: Lv10] [The Impossible to Possible: Lv9] [Blood Ruler: Lv8] [Only Daughter Of The Goddess*****]
Divine Blessing:
[*******]
'What the hell is going on here?'
{Congratulations on your advancement! Clap, clap, clap.}
'Hmm Mother.'
{Are you really not that happy to see me?}
'Still, somebody will not explain to me what the meaning of all that happened is. i will hold a sulk, bleh.'
{Well, then I came at the right time.}
Mother said before a light enveloped me and brought my consciousness into her divine realm.
The biggest difference that time was I could see Mother's second eye.
"Well, where is my explanation?"
{It's coming, it's coming.}
Even her voice slightly changed. It became more clear and nice to hear.
{From where should I start?}
"From Eris, the orb, and everything that you and [Global Wisdom] are hiding from me!"
{Okay, okay, to begin with, eris is really your daughter and she is not the only one that you have.}
"Since when?"
{From the very beginning, even before your reincarnation.}
"How is this even possible?"
{I would be better off if you just found the answer by yourself.}
"Please, I need to know since when I abandoned my own child."
I said with tears on my face, remembering what Eris said in her sleep.
{This truth is something that you are completely not ready for. are you still sure you want to know?}
I took a few seconds to think about it, and after taking a deep breath, I replied with confidence and readiness for everything.
"Yes, I must know what happened and what she went through."
{So be it.}
{The truth is that this is not the first time you've reincarnated.}
My eyes widened upon hearing that.
{In your first life, your origins, you were a goddess. i think you already know what was your name.}
"..."
{You were the most powerful being in the whole universe; because of your strength, many feared you and other instead respected you.}
{Because of your ruthless nature as the tyrant in those times, you didn't have many enemies, or so you thought. In reality somebody really close to you was planning your ruin. Finding out the truth too late. To protect Eris and the one precious to you, you reincarnated them.
You, your wife, and many of your most trusted subordinates stayed behind to fight till the end. Ultimately the war ended with your death. A war that has been on going for thousands of years, in which many gods and goddesses had died, had ended.}
Hearing that, I felt something breaking inside. Anger, sadness, and melancholy filled my heart.
"When did I start forgetting?"
{From the reincarnation before the last one. So you prepared this planet and [Global Wisdom] to help you remember in the eventuality you forgot anything, but because you could not control your anger, you kept challenging them and died every time. in the end, he sealed the remaining memories.}
"How long has it been?"
{...}
"Tell me!"
{It's been over one million years and over a thousand reincarnations.}
"What is the actual situation of the others?"
{...}
"Please."
{Some are hiding but they are safe waiting for your return; other are prisoners and being tortured on a daily basis.}
She was right; I was not ready for that.
"Where is she?"
{I don't know.}
It was an information that I could not handle.
"It hurts!"
I screamed in tears. The thought of having abandoned somebody for so long.
"I just can't bear it!"
The pain of having done nothing for the one who trusted me.
"I was not ready at all!"
For the rest of the time, I simply cried my heart out. What was I complaining about the abnormal stats growth for? It was just a desperate attempt of somebody who could not see me dying anymore to protect me. How selfish I was.
I could not stop thinking about how many times my mother saw me dying, unable to do anything, just crying in silence in a corner.