Bella
Rubbing my eyes, I made my way towards the bathroom. Maybe after a very long time, I had a good sleep. As I looked into the mirror, memories from last night came rushing in my mind. The thing is I remembered everything from last night. I instantly wanted to slap myself for doing what I did. How could I kiss Mr. LaRusso, the owner of this mansion? Now what would he think about me? I almost showed my real self to him, which no one was supposed to see. Now what if he took advantage of my weakness?
After doing my morning routine, I wore my maid dress and went downstairs. All I knew was I needed to avoid Mr. LaRusso from now on. He didn't have to see me weak. At the breakfast time when I served the men food, I didn't even look at him. Even Mr. LaRusso didn't seem to force anything on me. He was just as quiet as I was, and I was thankful for that. I hoped he forgot everything from last night.
"Are you okay? You seem too quiet today, Bella," Sara asked as I was washing the dishes.
I turned around and gave her a smile to ensure that I was totally fine, which I was not. "I'm okay, Sara. You don't have to worry." I went back to washing dishes.
"Your eyes are red. What happened?" She came closer to me and put her hand on my shoulder, worry was clear in her voice.
"I'm totally fine Sara. It was just, I had headache last night and I also took pills so don't worry." I said, turning fully towards her as I rubbed my forehead to make my lie look real.
"Oh. If you still have pain, you can rest for a moment-" I knew she was worried about me, but I cut her off.
"No Sara, I'm fine now. I don't have to take a rest, and you don't have to worry your head, okay?" I smiled at her before putting both my hands on her shoulder to turn her around and jokingly pushed her towards the counter. We both laughed as we both went back to our own work.
I was so embarrassed even by thinking about last night. First, he saw me totally naked before leaving for a whole week and then last night I kissed him and fell unconscious in his arms and the next morning, I found myself in my bed which clearly showed he carried me to my bed. No one has ever seen me naked and no one, not even Ria has seen me this much broken. Now any ordinary man would think that I was trying to seduce him. I could never let this happen. I had a reason to work here as a maid and as soon as I pay the debt, I would leave this place and never turn around to look at this kingly mansion.
All I wanted to do was erase all my encounters with Mr. LaRusso because every single one of them was embarrassing.
I closed my eyes and released a breath as I thought about the moment I kissed him. I felt so light for the first time in a very long time. As if all the pain were going away from my body. I felt that for a little time, but it was there. And when I was in his arms, I felt so warm and protected as if the nightmares could never touch me. I didn't recognize the feeling but even for a little moment, I was so ready to be in his embrace again only if it helped me get away from my painful past. I knew I was very wrong to think that, but I wanted to get away from this hell so badly.
"Thinking about me?"
As soon as I heard the very familiar voice, I felt a shiver run down to my core. I never felt this way after hearing someone's voice. Only his voice had this effect on me, and I hated myself for that.
I didn't turn around as I knew who it was, I made myself busy with my work.
"What? Now you are going to ignore me?" He spoke again. His voice sounded so soft and calm, but I could sense the desperation for my answer in his tone. I was too embarrassed to even be in the same room as him.
After a moment when I didn't hear him anymore, I turned around slightly to see if he had left. I cursed myself in my mind for turning around. He was still standing there, beside the counter, leaning against the huge fridge but his presence made the fridge look so small. His hands were in his pockets as his blue orbs were fixed on me, his face wore his signature smirk.
I sighed as I finally made the decision to face him. "Do you need something, Mr. LaRusso?" I asked as I put all the cleaned dishes on the counter.
He put both his hands on the counter leaning in as he titled his head slightly to look at my eyes, which I kept down to ignore him.
"Do you remember last night?" He asked in a cold tone.
I wanted to totally avoid this topic. "I- I don't remember. W-what happened?" I stuttered while answering. He had that effect on me, I felt so nervous.
He let out a deep chuckle. I didn't know why, that sounded so good also scary at the same time. Before I could understand anything, he held both my arms in a tight grip and pulled me towards him until our bodies touched. I kept my eyes closed as I felt the pain of his hold in my arms which was getting tighter every second. I could feel his eyes throwing daggers on my head and his hot breath fanning my face.
"Look at me!" He said so calmly yet it felt like my last warning so without wasting another second, my head snapped up to look at his beautiful blue eyes which were now cold and blank holding anger in them.
"Such a sweet little kitten. You should know that I don't like question as an answer." He said through his gritted teeth.
"I- I'm so-sorry Mr. LaRusso," I managed to say. I felt tears in my eyes as I knew he would try to take advantage of my weakness.
"Sorry for what princess? For being dumb? For falling asleep in my arms? Or for kissing me last night?" He said ever so calmly that it scared me to my core.
I kept my mouth shut as I didn't know what to say. I deserved a sorry from him too for barging into my room without my permission and seeing me naked, but I didn't want to lose my job at the same time.
"Cat caught your tongue princess?" He said as I could sense the mock in his tone.
I kept my eyes down as I felt his hold on my arms loosen before letting them go. I took quick steps back from him as I rubbed my arms.
He ran his hand through his hair before letting out a sigh and looked at me. When I looked up, I saw his eyes intensely boring in me.
"Bella, what happened to you last night?" He asked. I was taken aback from his tone. One moment, he was so rude to me and the next moment he was so nice. His eyes held such emotion that I couldn't decipher but I knew I couldn't trust him. At this moment, I could only pray for Sara to come back.
"Nothing. I just had a nightmare." I said which was merely a whisper as I looked down, but he heard anyways.
"Nightmare huh? But it didn't seem like just a nightmare to me." He said suspiciously.
"It was just a bad dream! Nothing else." I said, trying to prove myself.
He took slow steps towards me. My brown orbs met his blue ones.
"Why are you trying so hard to run away? I noticed something was bothering you. It affected you so much that you couldn't hold it back," he said as his eyes searched for answer in my eyes. Worry was clear in his voice, but his face remained blank.
He was right. I was being bothered by my terrible past that it was hard to hold back. I wanted someone to help me get out of it, but I couldn't trust Mr. LaRusso either.
He kept looking at me, giving me enough time to answer him. Before I could say anything, we both turned around to see Sara standing, looking at us. Her eyes widened when she saw Mr. LaRusso and I could see the fear in her eyes.
"Mr. LaRusso, what happened? Did Bella do anything wrong? She probably didn't understand. I'll tell her the rules-" her voice was filled with fear as she tried to hide my mistake which I never did. But Mr. LaRusso cut her off.
"She didn't do anything." Mr. LaRusso said before looking back at me. "We are not done yet Princess." He said in a cold tone before leaving the kitchen.
As soon as he left, Sara came rushing to me.
"What happened Bella?" She looked scared as she waited for my answer eagerly.
"Nothing. Don't worry. Mr. LaRusso needed water," I nervously smiled, trying to hide my poor lie.
She released a breath of relief. "I was shocked to see him here. He never came into the kitchen." She said before moving back to her work.
I shook my head before going back to my work. I knew I needed to ignore him no matter what.