Get money quickly by month's end somehow if not we will not be able to continue her treatment."
The doctor said that and left leaving me utterly shattered as I stared down at a whopping bill clutched tightly in my sweaty hand."$100,000… Where am I going to see that amount of money?"
Even if I did my current job for 20 years, I still won't be able to pay the bills.
$100000 just lies ahead somewhere and I'm totally clueless about scoring that sort of cash somehow.
Twenty years of slaving away at this gig still leaves me deep in debt with bills piling up fast. I sobbed uncontrollably covering my face with the crumpled paper bill."
Its all my fault" I sniffed as I hit myself.
"it's all my fault," I whispered again.
People were definitely staring hard at me with intense unblinking gazes from all directions over my left shoulder. I sniffled pretty loudly as I whacked myself hard saying its all my fault rather sheepishly now. I whispered again that everything was my fault quietly. "Had not gone to settle trip expenses in New Zealand, she would still be standing in front of me and not laying on an hospital bed.".....
Flashback
" Mom, no, I'm not going we don't have the money" I shouted at her.
You have to go, baby,it's a trip to New Zealand and you've always wanted to go there so what's stopping you? She remains upright in front of me and caressed my cheeks.
"No mom, it's really expensive. I'm Not going. I bellowed loudly at her saying we were flat broke., We are barely surviving here in havenbrook I can go next year" I tried to reason with her
"No more arguments, Rosa, and that is final. I knew my mom and once she has made up her mind it is final.
"Mom, please, listen to me."
I spoke from behind her to the kitchen.
She tenderly stroked my face with gentle fingers."Mom, please, can you just let it go?"
Let's focus on making our life better instead of going for a fucking trip that I might not enjoy."
I looked into her eyes and she smiled.
"All your life, you have been a strong girl always fending for me and for yourself, Always sacrificing something to make me happy, after your father died you took it upon yourself to provide for me even though I was capable of working, just to make me live freely, my heart breaks anytime I see you sacrificing your happiness for me." Our heads were joined together and we let the tears flow " so please mi Amore let me do this for you, let me sacrifice for you just this once" she smiled in between in between her words and I couldn't stop her from doing what her heart wants" *********************************************
I went back to my room and called my friend.
"Hey, lilly," I smiled.
"What's up, Rosa?"
"it's my mom, she insist on letting go on the trip after I told her I didn't want to go" my voice was cracked and shaky because of the emotions still flowing in me.
" I know how sturborn your mom can be, let her do what she wants if that's what will make her happy" I agreed with Lily, she had a point
" Yeah, I just want her to be happy and not stress herself because of me you know hoe bad her health is I don't want it to get worse" I sniffed in between y last word.
"I totally understand, but just let her do what makes her happy.
Lilly responded and spoke with so much sweetness.
"Thank you Lilly, you really know how to make me feel better"
" No worries Rosa, I'm always here for you if you'd ever need me "
So I guess I should be expecting you on the trip, huh?" her voice sounded happy
I smiled which made me smile too.
" I guess so"
"Don't worry, Rosa, it's going to be fun along with the rest of our clique, it's going to be a blast" she's happy and that's all that matters
"Yeah, take care Lilly, I'll talk to you later" I hung up the phone and went to look for my mom
Mom," I called out to her, but there was no response.
I could hear the sound of an ambulance outside which was strange, before I could open the door, there was a knock on my door and I just opened
"Good afternoon Mrs Novaro, what's going on?" I smiled at her but she wasn't responding and sounded neverous.
"Your mom…" that's the only words that came out of her mouth, and I pushed her out of the road without even noticing I ran barefoot.
"Mom… mom…" I called out as tears blurred my vision, my mom was on a stretcher. " Mom... Mom.. open your eyes! I'm here" my mom opened her eyes and I smiled nervously and she raised her hands to my cheek "I'm sorry mi Amore" and her hands left my cheeks.
"Quickly, we need to take her to the hospital, her health is deteriorating,"
The man from the paramedics was saying to the other one, and I just sat on the floor of the street.
"It's all my fault"