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Chapter 5 - This Place Was Never Home

Ragan stood in the middle of his apartment, surrounded by wrappers, dust, and decisions.

The silence was thick now. Not oppressive. Not haunted. Just… present. Like the walls were waiting for him to move. Like even the air wasn't sure what came next.

He looked down at a crusted-up cup of noodles sitting beside his bed, half-shriveled, long dried out. It had been there for what? A week? Maybe longer. The chopsticks were still stuck inside, fossilized in place.

He kicked it over gently. The cup didn't even roll. Just tipped and lay there, like it had given up.

Ragan rubbed the back of his neck.

The corner of the room near the window had dust on the dust. Wrappers from cheap takeout lined the edges of the floor. An old T-shirt had been tossed on top of a fan that hadn't worked in months. The whole place stank like desperation, microwave dinners, and worn-out frustration.

He stepped toward the dresser, pulled open the bottom drawer, and found a speaker that still mostly worked. He connected his phone. The screen flickered, but the Bluetooth kicked in. He scrolled through his old playlists, half-ashamed of what he used to listen to, then found one he hadn't touched in years. Something calm. Simple. Instrumental stuff. The kind of music he used to play after training.

It started quietly, filling the room like water trickling into a dry bowl.

He rolled up his sleeves.

No ceremony. No speech.

He just started.

The wrappers went first. Stuffed into a garbage bag with a grimace. Then the takeout boxes, the old receipts, the broken pens. The crusted mugs by the sink. The soda bottles lined up under the bed like a weird shrine.

One by one, he gathered them all.

Every item tossed felt like a word he never said. Every wipe of a dusty shelf felt like erasing some old lie he had told himself about things eventually getting better on their own.

He moved to the laundry next. Folded what he could. Tossed what he couldn't. The closet door creaked open to reveal shirts he hadn't worn in years, still on broken plastic hangers. He sorted them slowly. Deliberately. He didn't rush.

It wasn't about making the place spotless. It was about proving to himself that he could do something. Even if it was this.

He vacuumed. Sprayed air freshener. Found three half-used deodorants and a toothbrush so worn it looked like a failed experiment. He threw them all out.

Somewhere in the middle of it, he paused. Sat down on the now-cleared floor with a half-limp garbage bag beside him and looked around.

The apartment still wasn't nice.

The walls were still cracked. The carpet still stained. The air still thin and sad.

But it was clean.

For the first time since he moved in, it actually felt like it could be a room someone lived in, not just survived in.

He leaned back, bracing himself on his palms, and looked at the ceiling.

No sword.

No goddess.

No glowing eyes watching from the shadows.

Just him.

And the echo of music from a speaker that wheezed slightly when the bass kicked in.

He sat there for a long time.

Eventually, the music looped. A new song started. Slower. Older.

He pulled himself to his feet and walked over to the dresser again, opening the top drawer this time.

Inside were a few scattered things. A lighter. A cracked photo frame. A pair of socks that didn't match.

And an old picture.

He picked it up carefully.

The glass in the frame was scratched and slightly bent, but the image inside was still clear.

Him and his mom.

Standing outside a small, run-down building with a crooked wooden sign. The kanji for "sword" hung above the door. His old dojo. He was maybe ten or eleven in the photo, wearing a white gi that looked like it had been made for someone twice his size. His belt was loose, and his posture was terrible.

But he was smiling.

And she was laughing.

He remembered that day. His first belt test. He had failed it. But she took him out for ramen anyway and told him she had never been prouder.

He hadn't spoken to her in years.

Not because they fought. Not because she abandoned him. But because after his dad left and the city swallowed them whole, it had just felt easier to cut away the things that reminded him of how far he'd fallen.

He whispered, "I should've gone back years ago."

The frame was cold in his hands.

He walked over to the mattress, sat down again, and just stared at the photo. The sword, the money, the goddess, the threats—all of it still hovered in the back of his mind.

But for the first time since everything began, he didn't feel chased.

Didn't feel hunted.

He felt… ready.

He had no idea how to fight divine wars or train with magic swords or carry a god's will across dying stars, but he knew where to start.

He knew what to do next.

He was going home.

He didn't move for a while.

The picture frame still rested in his lap, and the music kept looping. Another track, softer this time, filtered into the room like it knew something had changed.

Eventually, Ragan stood.

No dramatic exhale. No clenching of fists. Just movement.

He took the photo and slid it gently into his back pocket.

Then he pulled out his phone.

He scrolled past missed calls, scam alerts, and an ad for cheap furniture, and opened his landlord's number. It had been saved under "Old Man Wills," though Ragan wasn't even sure the guy's name was actually Wills.

He started typing.

"Hey. I won't be staying anymore. You don't need to worry about the last month. If anything's broken, take it out of what I just sent."

"I left the key on the counter."

"Thanks for not kicking me out when you could have."

He stared at the message for a few seconds, fingers hovering over the screen.

Then he added one more line.

"Hope life gets easier for you, too."

He hit send, backed out of the chat, and opened his banking app again.

He transferred $30,000 into the man's account. No labels. No fanfare.

Then he deleted the contact altogether.

No going back. No second-guessing. The money was real. The goodbye was real.

That chapter was over.

Ragan slid the phone into his back pocket and turned toward the closet. Most of the clothes inside were useless—stained, too small, too old—but he pulled out a few that could survive another week or two. A couple black T-shirts, a pair of track pants, a jacket with a broken zipper.

All of it folded with surprising care.

He found an old duffel bag under the bed. The zipper stuck at first, rusted from disuse, but after a little coaxing it opened. He stuffed everything inside, stacking it like he'd done this a hundred times before.

He grabbed the last few personal things he cared about. A cracked notebook. A USB stick with old photos. A worn keychain his mom gave him when he was thirteen—some stupid trinket with a little sword on it, barely more than a charm. He clipped it to the bag's zipper without thinking.

Then paused.

He knelt by the closet and reached behind a stack of collapsed cardboard boxes.

There it was.

His old belt.

Black. Frayed at the ends. Folded twice and left behind after he stopped going to the dojo.

He picked it up, held it in both hands. It still smelled faintly of sweat and cheap detergent. Still had the small red thread where his mother had sewn in his name.

He smiled.

No one in the city knew what this belt meant. No one knew what it cost him to earn it. How many beatings. How many failed tests. How many late nights practicing stances until his legs burned.

He folded it again, slow and neat, and placed it on top of the packed clothes.

He stood, gave the room one last glance.

Still old. Still small. But clean.

His phone vibrated once, but he didn't check it.

He walked toward the door, reached for the bag, and stopped.

There was one more thing.

Ragan looked down at the space beside the bag. Empty. Still and quiet.

"I wonder how I'll get that sword back," he said.

For a second, nothing happened.

Then the air rippled.

The sword appeared.

No glow. No sound. No announcement.

It simply phased into existence, its black-metal surface dull in the soft light. Smaller than before, more compact, shaped for his grip. No longer some cosmic declaration of power, but something his.

He didn't pick it up.

Just stared at it.

The blade shimmered faintly—then vanished again, without a word.

Ragan smirked.

"That was pretty convenient."

He zipped the duffel bag shut and slung it over one shoulder.

His boots echoed against the floor as he walked out.

No dramatic exit. No flames or lightning. Just a man leaving a life behind.

He stepped into the hallway and locked the door behind him. Slipped the key under the door and made his way down the cracked stairwell. Each step echoed louder than the last.

The lobby was empty. No weird encounters. No magical intrusions. Just the soft buzzing of the overhead light and the faint scent of something fried from a nearby apartment.

He pushed through the front door.

The city hit him all at once. Morning light painted the buildings gold, and the air was already warm. The streets buzzed with the same life as always—cars honking, shop doors opening, tired people rushing toward jobs they hated.

He walked down the sidewalk, the bag heavy but not unbearable. The ache in his ribs still flared up when he moved too quickly, but he didn't care.

He was going home.

Back to the old town. Back to the hills where the air smelled like cedar and smoke. Back to the small, run-down dojo where he learned to swing a wooden sword and hold his ground even when he was outmatched.

Back to the only person who ever believed in him without needing a reason.

He hadn't seen her in years.

And now, finally, he would.

He would knock on her door.

She'd open it.

And he'd say—

"…Hey, Mom."

The thought hit him harder than he expected.

He hadn't said it out loud in so long.

He looked up at the sky, just as a breeze rolled through the street.

The city didn't notice him leave.

But he didn't need it to.

Because for the first time in years, Ragan Hart had something that looked a little like purpose.

And this place?

This place was never home.

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