She soon felt the fear within her beginning to bubble up as if it had been silent for so long, but it started to rise to attack during her vulnerable moment.
Her fear of losing someone again, which had caused her to put distance between others and not form deeper relationships with them, had controlled a lot of her actions and decisions.
Those decisions had been made to protect her in many ways, but they still resulted in things that were just as bad for her.
Either she could regret letting someone be let in and being hurt, or she could regret holding herself back during the time they had together.
One of her greatest fears was having things fall apart in an instant due to something far out of her range of control.
Any small unpredictable factor could cause her life to fall apart and give her a big critical hit.
It was one of the reasons why she craved control so much, as it was a means of providing her stability and safety.
