"My lady please do not go in, his lordship looked like he was ready to kill someone" his eyes pleaded as his hands hovered over the door.
"I will be fine Alan" reassuring him with a smile.
"You idiot" he screamed the moment I walked in. I could see all his emotions on his face. He looked like he was seconds away from an explosion.
"Who gave you the right to sign those damn papers, do i need to beat you before you come to your senses. Havent you ruined enough in my life? Will you be satisfied when you finally take my life? You are nothing but a waste of space. I should have killed you off when you were born, something useless like you cannot be my child" he slammed his hand down spilling documents all over, but he wasn't coming closer. He looked like he was struggling. I thought he would jump on me the second he saw me, but he seems to be holding himself back or am i overthinking things.
"You useless thing, I asked you to do just one thing. Can't you do anything right. All you have is your beauty and nothing else, you are nothing but a stupid empty doll. If not for that insolent brat I would beat you till deaths door, get out, get out, seeing your face makes me want to strangle you. Get out before i kill you tonight." He threw some object towards me but always missed like it was intentional.
"Lady clarisa" Alan's eyes were bulging. He must be shocked to see me unharmed with how angry the count is. 'Not only you alan' I look back at the closed door, even i am extremely shocked at fathers tame reaction. He was still screaming at the top of his lungs and throwing things around but that was none of my concern now.
"Clarisa" Arabella and Clark burst into my room
"Did father hurt you" scanning me head to toe.
"No I'm fine, he was just really mad" I grin. It was really satisfying to see him so mad but unable to lift a hand against me. I felt 5 years of frustration wash away. Clark looked visibly relaxed seeing me unharmed.
"What do you plan to do now? The engagement with the prince is off now." Clark's voiced his concern knowing how ruthless the count was he would not just sit still and watch me grow old in this household. He would rather sell me off to an old man.
"I guess he will start searching for a new groom soon. I don't mind either way. Marriage means nothing to me. It's just a way for me to leave this household and the dumont name behind" Bella hugs me tightly whispering words of love to me.
It's morning now and the news was already all over high society. I few of the ladies had sent me letters asking about my wellbeing as it was believed that i was deeply in love with prince callus and that was why i stayed with him all these years, I'll have to send them replies on a later date, sending too early would not be a good look.
"Clarisa you came to see us off" Bella spun around leaping into my hands.
"Do you have to leave now? Why not stay a day or two longer"
"I'm sorry clarisa, i have allot of work to catch up on at the magic tower. We will write to you often" they both climbed unto the carraige as it sped off and faded into the distance.
Damn it why did I have to run into this bastard so early in the morning.
"Greetings father"
"You useless thing, ill sell you off. Just you watch, you should have just stayed quiet and married the prince when I was being nice to you." He screams at me as he stomps away.
He is so pathetic.
It's been almost 2 weeks since my broken engagement and the count still hasn't done anything about it yet. Even in all the commotion going on, not once did the countess express concern or even show any emotion. She is the only person that has stayed consistent in her actions towards me.
I don't blame her for it though. If i loved prince callus I don't think I would have been able to bear watching him meet other women.
"My lady, i heard news that a carriage carrying the emblem of the duchy of runan was seen in the capital." Sarah was my only way of getting information as the count prohibited me from leaving my room since then. I've had to have all my meals here as 2 guards have been stationed outside my door and window, Just like a prisoner.
"Well I did hear that the duke was searching for a new bride"
"What if the count marries you off to him, that's so scary" she shudders and grits her teeth
"Don't worry Sarah, i know the count seems heartless but even he wouldn't go that low"
I underestimated this bastard, he had been quiet for almost a month now and it was 5 days to my coming of age ceremony so I thought he would remain quiet till after then. I should have know he was a madman.
"Father, I never signed any of these documents"
" how dare a mere product speak back, you should have been obedient when I was lenient." This crazy bastard
" a carriage will come for you in 5 days, all you need to do is be present. I won't waste any man power on you so for your sake I hope the duke sent knights to escort you to the north" he started laughing like a madman. I should have known he would pull crap like this, he was too quiet all these weeks.
"Father he has killed off his other two fiancée"
"Well you should thank me, you will be going as his wife. Once you come of age in 5 days, your marriage will become legal and even if you do die there it would be better as you would have served a purpose to this house that raised you" this madman, what do i do now? I know nothing about this runan, I thought he would marry me off to a countryside noble just to spite me but duke theodore? Damnit.
"My lady, is it true" Sarah ambushed me the moment I stepped into the room. I slump onto my bed.
"Did his lordship go crazy? he cannot do this. Should I go beg him on my knees? My lady you shouldn't go please." She was crying uncontrollably now. Once I leave this house I will miss Sarah so dearly. She was the only color in my bleak life, the only warmth in my frozen heart. I'm glad I was able to be with her all these years. Having her by my side always made me think that my existence had meaning.
"I'll be fine Sarah, you should trust me. I'll take great care of myself" I would go with Sarah if I could but I dont know what will happen to me there. I cannot drag Sarah into uncertainty just because I'm being selfish.
"Its because it's you that I'm worried, please excuse me my lady" she basically ran out of the room. what did she mean by 'it's because it's me' she must just be worried.
I need to think, i knew the count was going to do something crazy but I never knew it would be this bad. How could he sign my marriage certificate to duke theodore without consulting me?
Well it doesnt change the plan though, it might even be better. If I were to run away, everyone would just assume that the duke killed his wife and no one would search for me right. This should be better and with this I don't need to wait 1 month after coming of age. I'm to leave this place in 5 days. I need to start getting ready. Since the count isn't sending anyone with me, I might be able to slip away during the journey and go missing. I'll need to pack all my jewelry and gems in a separate bag and have it on me at all times. Now I don't know how my dowry will be sent. Knowing the count he would never give it to me. I need start my preparation now.