Chapter 25.5
Lucianna's POV
I feel hot. All over. My body feels like burning, it does not hurt but its calling for something.
I'm in terrible heat!
This wave was so different from what I had before. I can't stop thinking about Jacob, and my body yearns for him, for his touch, for his presence!
"J-Jacob!" Before my tongue connects to my mind, I already screamed his name.
Jacob entered the room, slamming the door wide open.
I was trembling, not in pain, not because I'm hurt. It sounds pathetic but its because my body wants him.
I want him now.
This feels like I'm under a spell!
"Jacob! Please--!"
I don't know what I'm asking for. I'm not fucking aware of what I want but every words sounded right to me!
Fuck you, mate bond!
My core throbbed even harder. Was the bond cursing me?! What I'm feeling got worse with every wrath I have with the bond in my head.
"I'm here, Lucianna." Jacob held me in his arms and I fucking clung to him like he was the source of my life!
Fuck!
"Make it stop! Please!"
With that, Jacob claimed my lips with his.
**
"What did you do to me!?" I keep on punching his chest as my anger risen.
I'm naked and covered with the blanket while he was well-clothed sitting in front of me.
He gave me release and that fucking solved the trouble I was in.
He let me reach my climax.
But something was different with my body. Something has changed.
It's as if my body was traumatized to be deprived orgasm once more. And even after a release, my body wants more.
Jacob looked at my eyes. There was no emotion in his face, I can't read what's on his mind.
I bit my lip as it trembled with anger.
"Answer me." I commanded in a calm tone but my lips trembling.
"I'm making it possible for you to want and stay." he said and stood up.
My jaw dropped as I watched him pick-up my clothes from the floor.
I have read about this in one of my mate lessons before. I knew I have but I didn't gave full attention to it.
He made my body dependent to his warmth by using the mate bond!
I grabbed the vase above the bedside table and threw it at him. The vase hit his back and scraped his skin, making a few blood dripped from the small wounds. But Jacob did not even budge.
I snarled.
The wounds healed too quick that I pitied the poor vase rather than Jacob's back.
Jacob sighed and turned to look at me. Slow. As if he was tired.
"Where do you want to eat your breakfast?" he asked, ignoring what I just did.
I narrowed my eyes at him. Don't you change the subject!
Jacob sighed again.
"I can bring it here though I can't assure it will help you to keep being in bed with me around. Don't you think?"
He was so fucking calm after manipulating my body like this!
But, I also knew there was no point in arguing right now. I don't want another heat to come, I'd rather entertain myself and get out of this cursed bed!
"I'll be at the kitchen." I said through gritted teeth, my eyes still narrowed at him.
Jacob grinned wide. I was stunned for a moment.
This fucker can smile like that, huh!
"I'll wait for you then." he said happily and head out of the room. The fool looked like he just won!
I will make sure to get back for what you did, Jacob!
'I can feel his wolf at its peak. Now is the time to complete the mating with mate then escape!' my wolf popped out in my head.
'Where have you been?! You should've helped me when he--'
'I'm no use against the mate bond. It's not my fault that you can't control it,'
What the!
'I'm no Alpha! Of course my control has limit!'
'Just complete the mating! By that, we could escape!'
My wolf was at point but I believe there's another way. I know there is! There has to be!
'I will escape without doing the bond's way.'
'You can't do that. Just look what happened last night and this earlier.'
I sighed.
There was still some more cards. I still have some hope.
I know the mate bond's food was affection. Being affectionate with Jacob might help a little so I won't keep on throwing myself at him, at least.
'Just believe my will.'
**
"Eat more." Jacob urged but I shook my head.
I've been pretty calm throughout our breakfast as I set aside my anger. Jacob keep giving me weird looks, and I know he doubts me but somehow this helps.
"I'm already full." I declined. "What are your plans today?"
Jacob licked his lips and leaned on his seat, watching me carefully.
I can read in his eyes the questions of why I'm acting like this but I shrugged his gaze.
"You're scheming something again." he stated.
I faked to look shocked.
"That's some accusation," I chuckled. "I was just asking."
He pouted and wiped his lips with the napkin.
"I have no plans. Is there anything you want to do today?"
Just as I thought.
I'm sure he will keep his eyes on me all day. He must be thinking that I might escape after having an orgasm.
Well, thanks to you, you bastard! My body seems not sated even after that one climax!
I shook my head. "I'll just stay at home."
"Then I'll stay here, too." he smirked.
I fought not to frown. I think he was the one scheming something.
"Okay." I just said, letting go of my rising doubts again.
I need to feed the mate bond with affection. Maybe I will try and cuddle with him later, or get sweet with him or something. What other affectionate activities can we do?
"So… about last night." I started a conversation since we're done eating.
"What about it?" his lips rose a bit.
Argh.
"I'm not talking about that!" I was quick to defend and it was too late to take the words back!
I can't help it! He smirk as if he was thinking about the way he punished me last night!
"Oh, about what?" he grinned.
Now he's back to being playful? I can't read this guy, for real!
I hissed. "I'm talking about Dylan."
Not our adventure in your bed!
Jacob's grin fades immediately and the way his eyes lose its sparkle sent a shiver on my skin.
What?Was he angry now? I can't read his expression again.
Jacob looked to the glass his hand were holding, he focused his eyes there.
"What's to talk about him?" he said in a stern voice.
Then it dawned me.
Ohh~
I have a feeling that he is… jealous.
It was my turn to smirk.
"Well, I just want to clear that Dylan was my friend and I hope you won't cause him any trouble for meeting with me last night."
Let's flip the table.
There's a faint sound of his growl coming from his chest but I act like I didn't heard it.
"You care for that beta too much, huh." he said full of sarcasm.
"He's a friend so of course I care." I sipped on my water. "Why do you sound angered by something? Its okay for me to have friends, right?"
His jaw clenched twice before looking up to meet my gaze.
I gulped slowly.
"Just don't forget to set boundaries with that friend of yours, Lucianna, or I will."
Ha! Look at yourself, flustered and all!
"You don't need to look scary, you know." I pouted. Come on, let's see if the Alpha of the Shadow pack has a soft heart towards his mate.
Jacob sighed and shook his head slowly, licking his bottom lip as he look at my pouting face.
"Don't sneak like that again." he said in defeat.
"You're sound asleep. I can't wake you up and ask for permission so I had no choice…"
"Don't do that again."
I nodded and grinned. Jacob has a slight frown in his forehead but nodded slowly after.
"And here I thought…" he sighed.
"What?"
"Nevermind…"
I squinted my eyes. I think I know what he meant by that!
Is it okay to pry about it more?
"Are you talking about… your punishment to me?"
Jacob's eyes slightly widened but I continue with my act. I looked down to my overlapped hands and pretended to be sad.
"P-Punishment?"
"Isn't that what you d-did that last n-night?"
Ohmy! I should give myself a standing ovation from this sheepish role when in truth, my wrath was eating me!
Jacob ran his hand on his face, looking frustrated.
"Lucianna." He called in a soft voice. "I'm not punishing you. I… I told you my reason. It's not a punishment and I hope you stop thinking it is."
"B-But you manipulates me using that… that process."
"I just want to keep you. That was what I learned and what I thought will make you stay. It's not a punishment."
I sighed heavily, my lips even shake a bit.
"I-I don't want it…"
There was silence. A deafening silence.
My mind calculates what might run inside his head but I stopped myself to meet his gaze. I knew he was looking at me by the way I got these burning feeling.
"Fuck." he cursed in a whisper that reached my ears. "I'll stop once I find another way. For now, I can't promise your body will adjust with the effects of deprivation. I'm sorry."
I pursed my lips and nodded slowly, not looking up to his eyes.
I wanted to laugh.
Though, I'm sure Jacob won't give me another orgasm since I had one this morning. I'm sure he will try to do the same technique to make me succumb to the mate bond. I doubt he will look for another way, we both knew depriving me of pleasure was effective.
It's better to stay away from the bedroom, then.
**
"You have a huge backyard. This should be a garden, you know." I said as we look around that empty dead space behind his house.
"I'm too busy to give it attention." he replied.
"Such a waste." I mumbled.
I love greenery and I know the forest all over his house was green enough but the backyard was such an eyesore.
"You can do as you please with our home, if you like."
I snapped my head to look at him.
Our Home.
Ha.
How long has it been since I wanted to leave in a home I can call mine with someone?
"Tell me something about you." Jacob suddenly spoke that broke the silence between us. I was not aware that my mind flew far and in daze.
"What?"
"I want to hear something about you…" he repeated.
The wind flew my hair to my face as we look at each other.
*ba-dump*
*ba-dump*
Shut up, heartbeat! What was wrong with you to flutter that loud?!
"W-What do you w-want to hear?" I cleared my throat and looked away.
Jacob's eyes is… drowning. It always has been that way but now, it's different. Something was different in those pitch black eyes, there's an unfamiliar sparkle in it.
"Anything…" he say in almost a whisper.
I fought myself to look back at Jacob even if I was tempted to.
"I…" I sighed and looked down. "I think its a little too late for the 'getting-to-know-each-other' phase." I said and chuckled to cover my nervousness.
A moment of silence.
"Hm," Jacob walked towards the huge hammock and I can't fight myself to follow his moves with my eyes.
He was looking at me with… I am not sure but I guess that was sadness in his eyes.
What?
"Come here." he said in a voice that was not commanding, but also not demanding. It was soft and gentle, as if I still have a choice.
He tapped on the space in the hammock he was sitting in.
And I chose to seat at that space… beside him.
It's better to act too tamed, right?
Our skins are touching each other and I feel more conscious with our distance. He's so close.
I would be better not to turn and look at him or our face will be a strand away. That's too dangerous.
"My parents are out for their vacation. My mother's name is Anabel, and my father is Alejandro. You will meet them soon once they are done with their celebration."
What was he saying?
He's… sharing his personal information with me.
But why? I told him we don't need to… right?
So why?
"We don't need this introductiong, Jacob--"
"No. I want to know more about you, I hope you're up to bargaining." I can hear his grin through his voice.
"I have an older brother. His name is Roscoe, three years older than I am. He's… out there. Somewhere." he continued.
My head snapped to look at Jacob.
"You have an older brother?!"
What the?
Then why was Jacob the Alpha of Shadow pack?! It's always the first born that was destined to rule!
His eyes went down to my lips before looking at my eyes again.
I flushed.
Our face was so close! I forgot not to turn my head and look at him!
"Yeah…" he whispered.
His breath lingered on my face. I almost groaned from its peppermint and sweet scent.
Fucking heat was trying to turn over!
I quickly turned my head in front then I swallowed hard. That was so damn close.
Jacob chuckled and I felt his palm went on my back, drawing my body near him.
"How about you?" he asked softly. No, I think his voice turned husky and tempting in my ears! "Tell me about yours."
I sighed. I guess I should share some, too.
"I'm an orphan. My parents died when I was eight because of some rogue attack. I lived alone since then." I felt his hand gripped on the side of my waist, a little tight. "I-I don't have any sibling."
"Since eight? How'd you survive?" his voice was stern now, full of concern.
I cleared my throat. Something in my emotion seems to be bothered, its getting mix up inside my chest.
"I…"
Should I tell the truth?
Basically, I only survived with the hope that I will find my mate who will spend the rest of my life with me.
"The pack took care of orphans like myself."
I won't let him blow his bubbles bigger.
"Who take you in?"
"What?"
"I want to thank them for taking care of you, Lucianna. I want you to meet them in person."
"N-No… I mean, I did not live with anyone."
It will be trouble if I lie with that one.
"What? You lived alone since your parents died?"
Why does he sounds so shock? I guess most pack do the same. Plus,no one wants me back then, well, also now.
"It's no big deal, honestly. The pack provided me with my basic needs."
"You lived alone since eight." he stated.
I frowned and looked at him. His face was grim, his lips was flat and I can't read what he was thinking once again.
"T-There's nothing wrong w-with that…"
Will Jacob say things like I don't deserved him again because I'm an orphan? Well, the fact that he doesn't know about my background only meant he simply don't care.
Jacob sighed and I stiffened when he locked me inside his arms, embracing me tightly. His face was buried on my neck and my breath hitched from his sudden move.
"J-Jacob…"
"It's okay now. I'm with you."
My heart clenched and my chest suddenly felt heavy. I know I'm only supposed to act tamed but upon hearing those words from him… it feels like a warm hands caress my heart.
It feels so good.
Although touched by his comforting words, I chose to doubt these emotions and blame it towards the bond.
I'm just driven by the bond. I shouldn't fell for it.
Right?
Fuck, I'm no longer sure about my own feelings!
Jacob lifted his head and meet my watering eyes.
I can't cry. I shouldn't cry.
"Lucianna…" he whispered. His face was so close to mine, and I think he was about to kiss me when his phone rang.
*ring*
It seems like Jacob didn't heard it because his position stays the same and his eyes are now focused on my lips.
*ring*
"Uh, Jacob, your phone…"
He did not budge.
I'm already out of my overwhelming emotions during the fourth ring so I pushed him away.
"It might be important." I said.
He looked at me intently then bit his lower lip before shifting his weight and stood up sighing.
"I'll just take this."
I feel like a huge portion of weight was lifted off my chest when Jacob walks away to take the call.
Damn.
I know his gaze are drowning but what's so different this time? It feels… hypnotic. It's too much for me to take.
I sighed.
Not arguing with Jacob and being close to him like that might be enough affection for the bond to feed on, right?
I don't feel the same as I was before. It might actually worked.
My phone rang that made me jumped. Who might be calling?
It's an unknown number.
"Hello?"
"Still alive?" said the voice on the line as it laughed after.
"Dylan!?" I covered my mouth when I almost screamed his name. "Dylan! Are you okay?" I am whispering now.
"Your mate didn't followed me last night. I was the one worried of you."
I sighed. Of course, Jacob came home with me.
"I'm-I'm fine. Who's number is this?"
"I just borrowed this to call you. I can't risk your boyfriend knowing I'm calling, right?"
"What? It's okay. I told him you're a friend,"
"Ugh! Why are you so naive with these things? Lucianna, I'm a man, too. I know what might playing inside your mate's head. And damn! I wanna curse you so bad! Why didn't you tell me that you're trying to escape the Alpha of the Shadow pack?!"
I giggled. "I'm sorry. I didn't know I had to tell."
"You're trying to get me killed, Lucianna."
I chuckled.
"So why did you call?"
"I was just checking on you. But now I have a question."
"Which is?"
Dylan sighed. "Is he hurting you? Be honest, Luce."
I played with my lips using my fingers. I'm not proud on that part of me, and that topic was pretty sensitive to talk over the phone.
"Come on, if he doesn't then you won't be hellbent to escape."
"Let's talk about it when we meet again."
"Just say yes or no. Or else I won't help you with the plan we talked about."
"Dylan!"
"Just answer me. I need to know. I care so much about you, I prayed to the Moon Goddess that she pair me with you. I'm even willing to help you to the extent you asked me for. I think I deserve to know why I'm ready to enter another trouble."
He got a point.
"Y-Yes."
"I knew it." he sighed. "How bad?"
I bit my lip and went into daze. How bad…
"I'll say I rather be mates with you. If I'd known my fate, I might have prayed for the moon goddess to be paired with you, too."
"Oh, that's--"
My phone was snatched out of my hand and I stood hastily and turned to see Jacob's dark face.
My jaw dropped.
Not again!