Chapter Twenty Four
Lucianna's POV
The color of Jacob's eyes was richer than blood. It's so red that it looked scary.
I tried calming myself because my heart was in chaos, I can literally hear my heartbeats on my ear. It's too loud and fear was clouding my head.
I can't. I shouldn't.
My walls of defense heightened as I tried to fought the deadly aura that Jacob has been emitting. That helped me calm down.
Dylan was still on his knees, giving respect to my mate. My body was trembling but I managed to get down from the rock and moved beside Dylan in protective stance.
I have a bad feeling about this.
As if on cue, the moment when Jacob killed Justin flashes in my mind and I paled. I don't want another innocent life to lose just because of me.
I don't think I'm worth a life.
Jacob jumped from the top of the Hill and landed in front of us. His eyes are on me, those bright red eyes pierced through my soul that my conscience acted up.
I felt guilty.
"W-What are you doing here?" I managed to ask as I walked in front of Dylan to cover him.
"I think I have the right to ask that, baby." Jacob said in a snarl. "And with another pack's beta, huh?"
"I am the one who called him--"
Dylan's hand caught my wrist and I looked down to him.
At the back of my head, I was trying to command him to let my hand go by using my glare but it seems he has brought his balls now.
A low growl escaped Jacob's chest that I snapped to look at him. His eyes are now burning Dylan's hand on my wrist, and I know that was a bad move.
"It's okay, Luce." Dylan said and stood up. He did not wait to Jacob to greet him back and oh well, like Jacob will.
I sighed and my lips trembled a bit.
"Jacob…"
"What are you doing here?" Jacob asked in a stern voice.
I bit the insides of my lower lip to suppress the effect of him.
"I was just, uh, meeting with my friend."
Jacob looked at Dylan and his expression did not even changed before moving his eyes on me.
"While I'm past asleep." Jacob said in a low voice before chuckling sarcastically. "Hands off my mate, Beta. I don't care which territory I'm standing right now." he growled every word.
Dylan let go of my wrist and put his hands up, a playful smirk was plastered in his face.
Does this fucker wants to die or something?
"Not an enemy." Dylan grinned at Jacob's narrowing eyes.
Ugh.
"But now a candidate. I don't want anyone touching my possession."
"She's not a thing, though."
"Dylan!" I stopped his antics in a low voice. He shouldn't piss my mate more, I don't want him hurt. "Just stop, please." I whispered.
"Come here, Lucianna." Jacob ordered, irritated.
I only looked at him and sighed before looking at Dylan again. Ignoring his order.
"Go now. I'll call you later." I told Dylan while widening my eyes, hoping he would get what I meant. He only shrugged and took one last look at Jacob before giving me a weak smile.
"Let's keep in touch." he said, gave one last look to Jacob before turning his back at us.
I exhaled in relief once I saw him far from us now. I had a bad thought that someone will be jeopardized by Jacob tonight. What's gotten into him that he didn't burst out his anger when I clearly sensed he's on the edge?
Not that I want that to happen but still… it's giving questions to my head.
I turned my heels to look at Jacob and his eyes was fixated on me, his jaw tightening, and his eyes are back to black.
"What-"
"Let's head back now, Jacob. We shouldn't stay in Trivian lands." I said sighing and run fast up the hill.
I did not felt Jacob followed me quickly after but when I stopped and taken a few breath, I felt his presence beside me.
He was so fucking close. It made my chest heaved..
"You seem pretty calm. Not in the mood to kill anyone?" I said sarcastically.
My eyes are up ahead, to the Trivian pack.
Get home safe and don't come back here, Dylan.
I have a feeling that that guy likes to play hero or something.
"I'm far from calm." Jacob answered. His voice sounded like every words was hard to utter.
"Whatever." I sighed. "I want to head back." I took a step away from him, his warmth feels like meting my skin.
A loud gasp escaped my mouth when Jacob was suddenly standing in front of me, blocking my way. His eyes are looking at mine the moment I looked up at him.
"Why are you meeting up with that dog?" he asked.
I rolled my eyes. "Just catching up, Jacob."
"In the middle of the night? Without me knowing?"
As if I will tell you! I'm trying to escape here!
"So? I can't sleep so I--"
"You fell asleep on my arms first. Tell me, are you trying to cheat with me again?" his voice raised a bit and my jaw dropped.
"Wow! You sounded like a wounded husband just now, I almost clapped!" I laughed sarcastically.
Both of his hands caught my arms and shook me a bit. His eyes are angry but there's more of pleading in it while I kept my annoyed look.
"Answer me, damn it!"
"What is it to you?! You've done it first!"
I swear I didn't thought of putting Dylan in trouble but its too late before I realize my words. It came out as if I really intend on cheating with my beta friend.
Jacob's nose flared and I was ready for his outburst, ready to fire back and counter every words that will come out of his mouth.
But he sighed.
I frowned and my eyes looked down to his hands that slowly loosened its hold on my arms.
He was calming himself and I'm confused.
Where was your rage, Jacob?! I'm ready for argument!
"I was wrong, Lucianna. What I did in the past was a mistake and you don't need to taint your… pure heart because of me."
My arguing side says its not in the past because it has happened only recently but the broad side of my head says he was right.
My eyes softened but my heart didn't. There was doubt in my head that I can't reason out, I doubt his actions and words.
I don't trust him.
"You just made a monster in me." I smirked. "I don't care if you've changed, if you regret everything or what. I only want to stay away from you!"
His face looked pained but the side of my lips arched from the view.
The hell of an actor this man can be.
"That's… the only thing I can't give you."
"Ha! You gave me pain, you cheat on me, you made it clear how much you don't want me. So why bother keep me here, Jacob?!"
"I need you, Lucianna! Fuck! I'll trade my all for your forgiveness!"
My jaw dropped.
The nerve! He needs me?
"After all that you did, you'll say that now? Why not on the first time we met? Why didn't you show me that side of you instead of treating me like a trash?!"
"I have my reason!" his voice echoed throughout the forest. If I'm on my normal side, I would've trembled.
I laughed sarcastically, not taken aback from what he said.
Reason? What reason can be valid for all of the pain he caused me?!
"You said I'm weak but look at how you act right now!" I laughed again. "Your reason is weaker than me."
Jacob looked down but I kept my bitch face.
I don't even know I have this side, this hatred that he rooted in my heart was too deep. Somehow, it felt awesome.
"You're right." he agrees.
My smirk slowly faded from what he said. Jacob met my eyes again and I almost got fooled from the sincerity I think I saw in it.
"I know I'm at fault and what I did was beyond forgiveness but I still… hope… for us." his voice shaken a bit. "I will do anything to gain your trust again."
My lips are shaking.
The hardest part of my life was my battles from within. My own thoughts clashing their swords, my mind in chaos.
"You never had my trust, Jacob. I only trusted myself and the mate bond which what I regret the most."
"Lucianna--"
"If you want to do anything, let me go. Let me be far from you, away from your suffocating presence. I'm done with this shit."
"No! Anything but that. There will be no solution in running away from each other and you know that well."
"Oh, I knew it perfectly, Jacob! You're the first one that showed me that, remember? Running away, giving spaces, letting the distance be our barrier! So don't lecture me about that because you failed to apply it yourself! I want out with all of this!"
The cold wind swayed my hair, covering my face. I annoyingly brush it back.
"Even if I set you free, you'll just be burdened by the heat, by the mate bond. You know how this works, Lucianna."
"Then let's start completing the mating process! Since that will sate my heat, I am willing to endure being disgusted by your touch if that can make me feel free for months!"
His eyes narrowed, as if a predator looking at its prey. I narrowed my eyes more, the prey was not willing to be devour by fear, you fucker!
"Don't you dare use the mating as a way to escape me!" his voice thundered.
"Ha! You know that will happen soon given that we're always together so why not do it now? Come here and do it with me! I don't care being fucked in this place!"
"Lucianna!" he screamed angrily, trying to stop me. "Fuck." then he whisper a curse. "I am trying to be a better mate, if you can only see it, I am trying!"
"Who said I asked for that?!"
"No one! I am willing to be better! For you!"
I bit my lip to stop it from shaking.
Damn it! Something inside me was moved! Something inside me just lightened the darkness I'm being drowned with!
"I will never believe you, Jacob."
I need to get out of here so I did. I walked past him and bumped my shoulder to him, planning to run away because I feel like something was… awakening in me.
"Not so fast." he stopped me by holding my wrist, the same wrist Dylan touched.
But his grip was not strong so I was quick to take it back.
"I'm done with you."
"I'm not." his face was serious, no hint of sarcasm or playful, no emotions.
This was his side that its hard to read him.
Jacob took a step and he was in front of me. I did not budge even if I wanted to walk away or take a step back.
He was so close.
The way those eyes of him wanders on my face, looking at my eyes, my nose, my lips… its not helping.
Instead, I figured he was trying to awaken my heat. My eyes widened with that revelation! This bastard was trying to make me cling all over him using the bond! Using my uncontrollable heat!
Fuck Alpha's for being able to do this fucking trick!
"Stop! Stop that!" I took a step away from him but his hand was quick to hold my waist!
His hands was snaked on my waist that I feel his palm on the side of my stomach, gently rubbing there.
We're so close and his hot breath brushes on my face like a spell!
He was increasing his effects! The pheromones in my body was starting to dwell and run all over my veins!
"I won't stop. I will make you crazy over me that you will stop thinking about running away." he whispered before claiming my lips in a breath-taking kiss.